I’m not much for meditation – or at least not on purpose. The idea of sitting and reflecting or focusing on a thought or an idea isn’t very thrilling for me. I like to do things. I like to be productive and active and meditation seems to be more passive than I’d like to be so I’m not much for meditation.
Except I meditate constantly.
I’m never not thinking about something. When Meri and I were first married and we’d be sitting quietly in the car or in our tiny apartment living room I would often ask her “what are you thinking about?” and she’d say “nothing really.” If you were to ask me the same question I would have had a laundry list that would cover everything I had experienced in the past week, everything I might experience and every problem that could come my way. When I wasn’t thinking through those things my mind would be filled with current events, sports stories and probably some tv show or movie I had recently watched. I am constantly thinking about these things… meditating if you will.
Last week I read Matthew 12 where Jesus says this…
Last week I was reading in Matthew 12 when Jesus said this
“Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and it’s fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him.” -Matthew 12.33-35
One of the things that I like to do when I’m reading through the Bible is ask reflection questions. This may just be the curse of being a teacher/preacher but I can’t seem to help myself. I also make sure to force myself to answer these questions too – which is a bit harder for me. One of the questions I asked was “How do I store good or bad in my heart?” I realize one of the ways I do that is by what I’m meditating on day in and day out and unless I’m very intentional I will meditate on whatever is most recently available to me or whatever feels the most important.
In recent weeks I’ve found myself meditating on some of the more pressing financial issues of our church that have weighed heavily on my heart. What this kind of meditating produces isn’t good. I become fearful. I panic. I try and control the situation or manipulate things to produce a desired future. None of this is good fruit and it’s all coming out of what’s happening inside of me.
I could give you more examples but the bottom line is I need to meditate on the truth about who God is and who I am in Him. If I’m thinking about our churches financial situation instead of meditating on the circumstance I should meditate on these words of Jesus…
25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your lifee ? -Matthew 6.25-27
As I do it should produce a greater trust, a greater reliance on Him and a desperation for His provision and not mine.
This is how good is produced.